Let Go...

Alyssa Barlow: I had fallen down a couple of stairs, three years ago now. I had gone through a lot of different tests, and I thought my ankle was broken. I got X-rays for about two and a half weeks continuously cause I was like "I know it's broken." They were like, "It's not broken." The pain started spreading up, my leg was cold, and I couldn't even put a sheet on it, I was miserable. They put me on medication. Finally after about a month and a half they diagnosed me with Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy, which is when your nerves are firing constantly and all that stuff. It was the most excruciating pain I had ever gone through. The doctors were like, "Yeah, it's going to spread throughout your entire body for the rest of your life. There's no cure for it. We're going to put you on medication right now. We're going to take you in tomorrow and clip the nerve on the back of your heel. You'll be on crutches for the rest of your life. You'll never walk normal again." I was like, "Tomorrow? Ok, yeah. Right, I'll be here tomorrow." This had been already after two months of testing and going to every doctor. So my mom looked me in the eye at the doctor's office and she goes, "We will not accept that. God has a different plan for your life." And I was like, "Mom, you just heard what the doctors. My life is ruined." I went home and for about two months I was the most bitter person in the world. I wouldn't talk to God. I was furious. I found out there was a lot of humanness inside of Alyssa Barlow, which I had never allowed to come out. I always tried to be the perfect, Christian girl. Through that time, God was going, "Ok, can I have a hold of your life now?" because up until that point it was about me and my life, even though I was a Christian. So, He got a hold of me. It's such a long story in there, but He really got a hold of my heart in that time. It was kind of when He said, "Are you going to serve Me-yes or no? Do you want Me-yes or no?" So after awhile I was like "Yeah, alright." Then He said, "Alright, then put your crutches down." And I was like, "This is too hard." So my dad helped me and after three days I was walking. It was the most painful thing but every morning I'd wake up and God would say, "I want you to walk and push through the pain cause on the other side of the pain you'll find healing." After about a year of waking up every morning, and it was pretty painful, it was gone. And the doctors won't call us back. I can try to stand on heels now. It's done. You didn't have to clip my nerve. I'm fine. In a nutshell, that's everything.